I once believed that personality types didn't change. Maybe they don't, but like a trained branch, the pressure of circumstances alter one's natural bent. The difficult events of our lives have pretty drastically altered the margins I require to be "re-energized", or even to feel normal. As much as I love a great conversation with a friend and value transparency (that much hasn't changed), the inner dialogue must percolate a great deal longer. While it is sometimes good to push through feelings of withdrawal, mostly I've realized I should heed them. They are my red flags. Regrettably, I've learned that if I place myself in social situations prematurely, the filter over heart and mouth slips and I'll say things I don't ultimately mean. Rather than helping anyone, the burden becomes heavier. Does that make sense?
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I used to think the same, Amy. I've come to not only appreciate space and inner dialogue, but need it. Could never have imagined that 20 years ago. :)
So true, so true. Thanks for these insightful words
Yes Amy, that does make sense. Thank you for sharing. In light of all that trauma you have been through you carry yourself with such a calm strength.
Thank you for saying so Susi. :)
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